I recently finished some counseling which was very helpful, though my problem isn't solved, I'd learned all I could from my counselor. I've been amazed at how many ways it helped me, though my problem still remains, and I began to think, 'imagine what life would be like if I always had a mentor person around'. I bet I'd be a new man within a year.I was watching "The Empire … [Read more...]
It Keeps You Runnin'
So when I was at Capernwray I used to run because of the Shema Yisrael which states we are to love the Lord our God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength. It was this and the verse "physical exercise availeth much" in 1st Corinthians. So strangely the most exercise I ever did was religiously motivated rather than for health reasons really, though that was there too.So … [Read more...]
A Good Weekend, Existentialism, and Chocolate Chips
I figured I should put something up that wasn't depressing.Yesterday night I went to see Night at the Museum 2 because my mom forced me to go with her, but to my amazement, it was actually really good. Amy Adams captured the historical amelia very well. Ben Stiller was very Jewish and quite funny. It had alot of funny things in it and history.Then today I had a delicious … [Read more...]
Remembering I'm A Creature
It's amazing how life works. I had just written in a previous blog post that I was super depressed and lonely as a human, and that I wished to be like God, and to be removed from relationships and just have peace in solitude. Little did I know what I would be shown next....So I've been waiting for hours for a phone call, so I decided that in my depression I would pick up a … [Read more...]
Melancholy and the Infinite Sadness.
^that's an album by Smashing Pumpkins that my brother lent me in high school, but it was too depressing for me so I only listened to it like twice. The last few weeks have felt like nothing but a long line of people yelling at me, and a long line of of opportunities that I've had completely failed. I feel like an extra in my own life http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Extra_(actor). … [Read more...]